Sameoldstory's profile

		Profile ID: 1944974
Age	46
Height	6'0" ft
	(183 cm)
Weight	141 lb
	(64 kg)
Sexually is	versatile oral versatile
Country	Trinidad/Tobago
Seeking	sex partner(s) a relationship friends
Prefer men aged from 45 to 70

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How would I describe myself? Introverted would probably be the best description. More of a social moth than a butterfly. I have never been good at meeting people and this is complicated by the fact that I am also "Out" as it were. I don't wear my sexuality on my sleeve but I think as a 43 year old unmarried male, a lot of people who once knew me will probably have figured it out by now. I'm just simply accepting who I am at this point.

Why do I say, "People I once knew"?. Two reasons really. I think on average where I come from, once people begin to figure out that you are homosexual, at best you are treated with a sort of subtle social disdain which eventually leads to social isolation as the people around you try to determine whether or not it's an advantage to keep knowing you. It always gives me pause because it really highlights how disingenuous people can be, though I'd rather if most people would just skip the hollow platitudes and pretense if its simply that. And like everything else, people tend to choose their own advantage over you, no matter how long you've "known" them. So my social world is very small as a result.

The second reason has to do with my general departure from religion. I was once a "Jehovah's Witness" and it has been an ongoing battle with them ever since I disassociated myself from them. Like most closed societies, their rules are many and sometimes obscure and there are often consequences for being seen as a non-conformist of any sort. In my case, it was their version of psychological torture and social oppression as a result of a combination of my background and my willingness to challenge their societal ruleset on the basis of the behavior of their so called "elders". Let's just say that like a lot of religions, nothing is what it seems. Doing a little research I stumbled on to the fact that they often embeded satanic and phallic imagery in their artwork contained in the articles we study, like the Watchtower magazine and on the cover of songbooks, often talking about such godly things.. Its like the organization was living two lives and had two standards. It felt alien to me. When I discovered this, coupled with my treatment, I decided that I could no longer be a Jehovah's Witness and haven't looked back since. Maybe it has to do with the whole Moses wielding Snakes thing.. To simultaneously be a holy man from one perspective and a confounding bully or spiritist on the other. It doesn't matter in the end and I don't wear that past situation on my sleeve either. Needless to say, the end result is that my social world has become even smaller now since adamantly separating myself from them has put me at odds with my immediate family. But I have always been able to handle isolating situations (hence the introversion). I don't generally have a very high opinion of religion or even spirituality since leaving them so if religion is that important to you then I'm probably the last person you want or need to talk to. I should probably also mention that despite my affinity for men with penises I universally do not worship men or penises or any other sort of genitaila for that matter. Symbolic mountains included (for the zionists out there). I'll leave it at that..

But an introvert isn't an isolationist and hopefully the existence of this profile will prove that, at least in my case. I'm hoping to meet genuine people because unlike religion and dare I say spirituality, that's actually a need (Excuse the tone in my general description of religion but my last experience was a REALLY bad one). Typically I'm attracted to all sorts of people, I don't really have a favourite type or a bias toward any particular race and I have an unconventional view of beauty or handsomeness. But if I'm honest with myself, I am most attracted to people who are a bit more mature than myself. Big and burly or "stockiness" seems to be my sexual theme of attraction physically but its not written in stone. Personality wise, all that matters to me is genuineness. Not just when it concerns your interactions with other people but also being genuine with yourself. I don't really subscribe to self deception in myself or others. It's an advantage in the long term. A willingness to recognize your personal failings and act positively is the foundation for what I would describe as genuine. I'm hoping to find that trait in others that I am physically attracted to. No one's perfect and as long as you're not pretending to be then it's a good place to start. For me at least.

I am very loyal to people I care about but I can't handle betrayal very well admittedly. And as for certain social networks out there.. I'm not interested in children or adults who take pleasure in behaving like them, amongst other things. I rarely go to bars and I'm not much of a party person. You could arguably call me boring (which might not be much of an argument) but I make up for that in simply being genuine (I guess it's an introvert thing). My experiences has left me with a need to leave behind my previous social world in it's entirety.

I'm starting over, and this is my first social ping.

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