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		Profile ID: 2097885
Age	59
Height	5'10" ft
	(178 cm)
Weight	185 lb
	(84 kg)
Sexually is	top oral versatile
City	Orlando
Zip / postal	32801
State	Florida
Country	United States
Seeking	a date a relationship
Prefer men aged from 20 to 50

Profile text:

Much rather be cuddling with my guy right now than writing about myself, but need to find him. ;0) NOT here to hook-up!

I am a top, period, and a one-man man. I feel I'm meant to be a "daddy." (Although open to men my age), I long to hold, kiss, play, and get intense in the bedroom with a younger "son," and would also love to offer him my emotional support and life experience. It would be important my son is his own person, with his own income, interests, and life. A few personal favorites of mine are Babylon 5, fettucini alfredo, board/card games, reading fantasy (e.g., Harry Potter, Crystal Cave), and Hallowe'en.

I am open to a "creatively alternative" living arrangement, although it must be monogamous. I relate well to younger men with mature personalities, and would love that energy in my life. I do have a "thing" for short guys, blondes, smooth guys, and geeks esp. with glasses. ;) To be upfront, almost never attracted to much taller, bigger, or older.

Because my profile attracts scammers (whom I recognize quickly and do report), I will not provide a cell number before meeting, and NO money. Anyway, I live a modest, semi-retired lifestyle in a small home which does not allow for materialism or extravagance. I am no sugar daddy; would never enjoy being one.

I am a classic INFJ (Myers-Briggs). I'm very social and everyone's best friend but have no one to love because of a need for absolute integrity, emotional awareness, and sexual chemistry with a partner. This is why I am told INFJ relationships are amazing. Yet many INFJs never find partners, as I know too well having been single since I came out gay at age 12 in the 1970s. I share this because I've been rejected by guys as soon as they discover I've never had a relationship (1 1/2 months doesn't count, does it?)

I find I'm unusual as a man, isolated from sex and intimacy, because of my very private feelings about sexuality. Please don't misunderstand, I'm super fine being gay (though my orientation is not for public talk). I've also had enough sex to feel skilled. But more private than ANYTHING are my sexual feelings.

I finally get it now -- men nearly always take my lack of signals (flirtation) as not interested. I can say to someone I do NOT find them attractive (not intimate to me, yet no joy in it), yet I'm an extreme introvert about telling a man he's hot (or even handsome). I laughed my ass off at what a friend recently said men are like, "Hi. You're hot. Here's my penis." I am the polar opposite of that. I don't even like dating more than one person at a time. I truly desire to know I like and respect someone to be sexual, and that even includes flirting.

SO my life has been the biggest magnet for guys who are deep in the closet, are fighting or denying their gay feelings, or bisexuals afraid of their gay side. It's been bizarre and awful. I've tons of gay friends, just no dates. I'm also terrible at READING flirtation. Truly if a man doesn't flat out tell me he finds me attractive, there's every chance I will miss any signal he gives.

I'll add, INFJs like me are those rare few who can truly change their opinions even after years, but who also hold very strong beliefs that come from countless hours of thinking and investigating, and they deeply want others to understand them. Some of my key beliefs are... --Christianity, Islam, and other organized religions are man-made fantasy; the best sources for understanding our souls are NDEs and the psychic community. --Both the Democratic and Republican parties are equally vile marketing machines run by the very wealthy for their own interests; it has been well over 100 years since any true democracy has existed in the US. --Raised on a farm, I grew up with animals and respect their unique souls, but I do not endow them with human status. --Corporations and the "American dream" perpetuate and glorify a few making it big at the loss of many, and income equality is a primary concern of our immediate future. --"Global warming" was initiated by government agency, not by scientists, and its followers (most everyone) show cult-like adherence to "facts" from the highly suspicious to obviously false. --Oh yeah, and I don't have normal texting on my phone due to it being harvested in secret by well, just about everyone; I really would rather live without it anyway.

Now how to say this next bit without sounding like an ass. Not sure I can, so here goes... You can have too many friends; I do. I fail to be a good friend to most of them because of this. That is why I am NOT on this sight to increase my number of friends. Now, a friend with benefits... maybe. A date, a boyfriend ... DING DING DING! So please do not look to me if you're JUST looking for a new friend. That said, if you do find something that resonates with you--and god damn, you read all this, you're impressive!--I would welcome hearing from someone who can relate to a matching concern. If you're "interested" in me in a "dating" way, PLEASE send a pic and a message! I've been viewed 12000+ times??? but only ever met a half-dozen guys in person! Go figure. If you have the courage to show your face on here as I have, then I will do my best to reply. Please know though, I cannot relate to those who show just body parts. I will not reply to a penis or butthole.

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